Mediocre all the way.
During high school--the most important years of a person's life--I was fortunate enough to be part of a six girl group. Oh, they loved me as I loved them, and we had such fun during high school. However, the others were voted Most Popular, Most Beautiful, Valentine Sweetheart, Football Sweetheart, Band Sweetheart. Me? Nada. Zip. Nothing. I was mediocre at best, but still they loved me, and I was proud of them and that I was part of that group. What did they see in me, anyway?
Mediocrity on parade.
I felt a little driven to be better, not particularly the best, for I knew that wouldn't happen. But to make the Dean's List in college, to be chosen University Women's Girl of the Year as a student, and to make lots of A's made me feel somewhat better about myself.
In some heaven-sent missive, I was allowed to marry the man I loved with my straight hair and glasses. Then, I was blessed with beautiful smart children, both smarter than I was, but at that point I wanted my kids to succeed more than I wanted to.
Later, in my life as I know it now, I somehow have managed to write a lot of books and short stories and get them all published. But we're never satisfied, are we--those of us who are mediocre? Now, during the promoting phase of this writing business, I have learned that I must work to get those stories on some kind of best-selling list.
Are any of you like that? Never satisfied? Always wanting our books--like our children--to do better and better, not only to make them look good, but to make yourself happy?
At this moment, I'm watching one story I have that has somehow risen higher than any other book I have.
Addie and the Gunslinger--a short 99 cent Dime Novel with the Western Trail Blazers imprint of Victory Tales Press, a unique publisher owned and operated by a brilliant woman named Rebecca Vickery. I thank her so much for her work.
On Amazon tonight, NovelRank shows these statistics for Addie and the Gunslinger:Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #1,863 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
o #28 in Books > Romance > Western
o #52 in Kindle Store > Kindle eBooks > Fiction > Action & Adventure
o #69 in Books > Literature & Fiction > Genre Fiction > Action & Adventure
This is a ride, a thrill, a experience, and all I want or need is for some success to make me happy.
Isn't that wonderful? But what do you suppose I'm hoping for next? Yes, you're right. For Addie and the Gunslinger to hit #1 on one of these lists. It most likely won't happen, leaving me once again sort of in the mediocre range of the best sellers. But...do you think I really, really mind so much? No, I don't.
If I don't have this, or experience even more? It doesn't matter, really, because I have learned during my life that this is not all there is. It's just one chapter, but oh, man, do I love it!
Celia Yeary-Romance...and a little bit 'o Texas